The past month has made me think alot.

The different people I know.

The little things your friends do which piss u off for life.

Who is normal ? Who isn't?

What's our purpose in life?

Who are our friends? Are they for real or are they just there cos you're there?

All these show my insecurity. I do admit. I often go through a phase of insecurity where I just think and think and think. I end up having no faith in anyone and I don't trust anyone. I feel like I'm gonna lose my friends just like that. All these thoughts, kinda childish? Yes? No? My answer: I don't know.

Well, speaking of the different people I know and those who are in Melbourne. A group of them are just superficial people who u go, "Hey babe!! How've u been?!?!" *hug hug* *kiss kiss* and then no more news. Then there are those who are so alike with u. Love the same things, hate the same things. Next, there are those who are your good friends BUT delusional. juvenile. Everything is so simple to them. Nothing is a problem to them.

Sometimes I wish I could be them, those delusional ones. No worries in the world. Everyone is nice. There is not a single bad human being in the world. THe only one is Lucifer. LOL! The best thing about them is that they don't think deeper than the surface of anything.

When you're the only one who seems to be thinking deeper than the rest are at that moment, you just seem abnormal. Sometimes, you make the others look silly. BUT, that's not my point. heh.

Real friends; I love my friends alot .. but do I doubt them because I don't love them enough or is it because I love them too much??

I expect so much. Is it wrong to have expectations? Is it harmful to yourself? Is looking for your friends everyday stalker-ish? clingy? I personally don't think so. I think those who think so are just plain egoistic.

When your friends barely do the calling and you always do the calling, is it because they don't wanna see u? Tell me.

After doing all this thinking, I really wanna just leave MElbourne and go to somewhere far far away where I know no one. Get to know new people. Have a new life. A fresh start. Wouldn't that be nice?

On a random note,

MEL. this is dedicated to you. lol. since u love asking me to update.

See u at bubble tea. =)