I want to be around a whole different group of people right now.
I am so sick of being around all the other people who I know.
I just want to mix with other people, get to know them.

A refreshing mix! I really need that right now.

I have this sudden urge to go back in time.

To 5 months ago,
when there were still people around everyday.
People who entertained me and people who I could "bully".
I loved that.. and I miss it.

It disappeared.
It slowly faded away.
People always leave,
That's what I've concluded.

I am so over this.. I am not thinking too much while I have nothing to do.
I really really want to go away to another place. Live there and know no one there. Having expectations kills a person, seriously. Have you ever felt so angry at yourself for actually having expectations of people?

I put up a strong front, but many times, all I want to do is break down and cry just like all the other girls. It hurts even more when you can't express it. It hurts so bad u actually think that flying off a skyscraper would make u feel so much better. Laughing ain't the best medicine. Crying is more like the best medicine, don't u reckon?? I wanna just cry cry cry and cry and cry and cry cry cry!! Why can't I cry anymore? HAve I become a rock? Have I cried too much before that I do not have anymore tears to spare? HELP!

I have been feeling shitty this whole year. It is true. I do know that. Unlucky year. Shit year. Bad year. Sad year.

Do you really understand what I'm going through?

NO! I doubt so.